scrambled

it will take a lot of efforts

something bigger than an emotional quake

to get me back to the love map!

the heart is too wrecked

the mind is too shocked

my inside can't seem to trust anyone anymore!

i view the world in a different eye

i see people in a stranger way

nothing is the same!

I hope its just a phase,

I'll get over with,

Once I do, I'll fall in love again...

Yet I am sure I am revolting against my believes, views, self!

It is an on going inner conflict!

I don't know what to expect; but i'm sure it is for the best!

Moushie

Lie ... Pain

The problem is ... i dont understand how some people are created to destroy you, downgrade you, make you feel like you are a worthless being, a trash, someone who never was their "soulmate" ... all of that at a blink!

Why?! do you wake up every morning say "i will fuck her/his life" planning and exhisuting your mind with ways and says to make someone feel horrible about themselves!?

Could this be the goal of your creation?! Born to mess people's life?! No one caused you pain in the first place.. why?!


This year, i met .. No! let me rephrase that
This year, i've been slapped over and over from people I thought they were the closest! But boy i was sooo wrong!
Now, i reached a place where the slaps don't leave any effect, just deepens the pain! My fear is, I bubble, stop trusting anyone anymore and wont be able to see who's a friend and who's not!


They deceive ... lie ... Cause pain
They leave ... live ... & you still wonder how could someone was so close cause all damage in the world?!

Moushie