Saturday, October 24, 2009

A Woman Torn Apart -- 15 (B)

It was Sunday, December 31st 2000

Few people came to work that day; Nahed of course was one of the people who didn't come! Marwa excused her self to leave early, and I left at 1pm since there was nothing to do! I needed time to prepare myself for tonight.


" HAAAA! el youm el 7afla?! ras el sena?! 3eshtaw!"



"ee 5alina nestanis! Awal mara nsawee 7aflat ras sena! 7ada metshawga!"




"Allah ytamim 3alikm yam3atkm enshallah.. 7abibty"



I laughed!



"shfesh teth7kin?!" A7mad asked




"7asastny enk shayeb!" I teased




"ya 7elwch lama teth7kin! 3ezamtay couzinty?!"




"EE 3ezamt-ha!"
UFF SHYABEE?!



"zain, 3ashan a3aref el a5bar!"




"i won't even comment on that! Enta betru7 el challet?!" I asked




"ee el shabab metyam3in hnak, mshawee oo the7k... banam hnak tara!"
informing me



"mmm adry, a9lan a7san 3ashan darab el leil ye5are3... enzain ana we9alt 3end Maryoum; talk to you later!"
i said



"okay 7abibty, deraw balkoum!"
He said then hang up!



I passed by Maryoum & Rawan, headed to the salon to get our hair done. They both had there outfits to change at my house after we finish from the salon.

We finished around 5pm; went home feeling so excited for tonight! Made sure that everything is prepared and well done before we get dressed.

I wore a strapless, short gray dress, smoky eye make up & a red lipstick. Maryoum wore short sleeves, mid length roses dress. And Rawan wore a short tight black skirt with a purple & black tiger strips, oval neck, short sleeves top.


Both Maryoum and I blew dried our hair, Rawan curled it.


Dana wore an adorable flow, yellow short dress with a red bow in the front. Her hair was up and wore red accessories. 7essa wore a brown, short sleeves, long length silk dress with her mid length hair left down in a nit style.

She5a was the shock! She cut her short,, really short!!! i mean BOB haircut! she looked so sexy the family Dr. with a short, glittery tight black dress!


"She5ooo! shenu hatha?!" 7essa's eyes popped when She5a came downstairs!


"new look for new year"
said She5a with a full of a confidence smile!


"5alty She5a 7adch tshawgiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin!"
Rawan said


"EE mashallah 7elwa 3alch el gassa"
Maryoum said


i stood there speechless! Mashallah she look gorgeous !



"mashkourin! 7abit asawiha mufaja2a, 3abdallah yadree eny gaseta bs mashafny lel7in!"
She5a said



"Allaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! new look!"
Dana excitedly yelled while coming down and holding a dessert dish!



I walked to get the dish from Dana, placed on the table and finally said "She5a! t-hablin!"



"hehe; thanks sis!"
she blushed



"new look oo new year oo 5arabii6!"
7essa complained



"HAHAHA! ehya lel7in me7tara 3al 50 dinar malout 3awashy!"
Dana teased 7essa!



"chub! Aslan ana 3a6it om lsan 3ashan matlawe3 chabdy mu 3ashan el rehan! ba3din kelaha 50 dinar! shenu ya3nee?! helag!!!"
7essa said



We all laughed!







Guests started coming at 8 PM; Lamya & Souha had to complain at every single thing, but no one would listen to them except She5a -maskena!


Lights were dim, music was getting louder and mum seemed very proud from how we planned the party! She was smiling all the time and showing off between her sisters & friends! Mum is so cute!

Rawan asked some her teenage friends over, so we had to dance on teenagers songs! Of course the baby girls were with us in the party, and the boys at the camp with the men!

The party was so amazing! We would dance, while my old woman would pick up wifies for their sons! Chena 3ers hehe ;p




Saja came around 9:30 PM wearing a cocktail short dress

"3asa mate2a5art?!" kissing cheeks while she was holding a dish!

"la ma6afech shay!" then i looked at her dish and said "lesh mkalfa nafsch?!"

"la 3ady, hathy pasta with mushroom & white sauce; enshallah ta3jebkoum!" she said

"Ma Asadeg! ba3din azefch! ta3alay a3arfch 3ala mum oo 5awaty!" i said


We went to the basement where I put the plate with the other dishes & walked with Saja to meet mum & my sisters.

"Yuma! Hatha Saja sadeeqty bel dawam!" I introduced them to each other

"Mashallah 3alech!" mum said while greeting her "nesma3 3anch oo a5eran shefnach!"

Saja blushed and said politely "7ata ana 5alty; 3awash wayed tsulef 3ankoum!"

"shloun 3weesh ma3akoum?!" mum asked trying to open a conversation with Saja !!

I interfered "Yuma! mu waget el as2ela, ba3arefha 3ala 5awaty!"

"enzain yuma, fir9a sa3eda 7abibty yallah estansaw!" mum said

"Ana as3ad 5alty!" Saja replied

I introduced Saja to my three sisters, and there children. Sat with Maryoum who was with my other friends, I introduced them all together.


"Wien Rawan?!" Saja asked me

"hathy elly targe9 hnak labsa tanora soda gsera!" I replied

"Esmellah 3aliha mazyouna!" Saja said

I pointed at Rawan to come over..

"Rawan hathy sadeqty bel dawam; Saja"

"hala 5alty shlounch?!" they shocked hands

"adry eny kbira bs 5alty 3ad?!" Saja joked

"ba3ad, te5ayilay ena refijtch matertha anadiha 3awash! tgul prestige!" Rawan said!



HOW Embarrassing?!




"3eshtaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw!" Saja commented and stared at me!


"Rawan! 7sabch ba3din, ru7ay yenay!!" I said pretending to be mad! ;p

"okay aunty, bs mayloug tsawin ru7ch m3asba!" she flashed us a smile and continued dancing!

"Oo ehya el 9ajah! maylooooooooooooooooooog!" Saja said


"waaaaaaaaaaaay! kaletouny!!" i yelled then we all laughed!



When it was 11 PM; we all headed to the buffet for dinner. Everything was a true YUM YUM! From salads & soups since it was cold, to chicken & meet, salmon & shrimps! Not to mention the desserts! Another success to 7essa!


An hour passed so quick; at 11:50 PM some of my mum friends said loudly:

"kel wa7da tshuf meno thakerha hal leila?! 6al3aw hal m'3arbal oo egroolina!"

Thats when Dana stood in the middle of the hall and jokingly said "may9eer! ana ba6afy el litat 3ashan elly telefonha ysheb, n3aref ena fy Romeo aw Qayes 3end el 3ayayez, tethakarha!"


"Bar3a bntch Ya Om S3ood!" my mum's friend teased!

Mum laughed and said "ba3ad 5elgat Rab el 3alamin; Allahouma la e3terath!"

"kel el muraheqat oo el a6fal yugfoun bel ne9 oo y3doun!" Dana demanded; and all the teens & tween gathered in the middle, while Dana switched off the lights!

"Yallah 3edaw!" She asked them

The seine was amazing! girls counting down, ladies holding their mobiles waiting for the "Happy New Year" message or call!

"... five, four, three, two, one .... HAPPY NEW YEAR" all the girls said at once!

You can hear so many mobiles ringing and beeping! It seemed that most of the women & ladies got a greeting from someone; and we all greeted each other.


The night was finally over; everyone left and my sisters stayed to sleep over! It was a wonderful night.

New Year Eve would never be an ordinary night; especially that year, 2001!

A year when everyone's life changed

A year when I realized how empty my life is

A year of my inner revolutions; and some of my biggest mistake I regret all my life!

If I knew we were celebrating a year full of pain & tears & miseries; I wouldn't celebrate it!

If I knew I was celebrating a year of fake masks falling down; I wouldn't celebrate it!

If I knew I was celebrating a year when I took the most painful decision, when I found so many hurtful truths, I wouldn't celebrate it!



I wish I could turn back time and stop it at that night


If I knew that 2001 was the year were I got torn apart; I would ....


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كل سنة وانت بخير يا غازي :*


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:* وانتي بخير %#$ي



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Happy New Year Babe.. A7bch ;***




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love you too xoxo




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To Be Continued ... A Woman Torn Apart

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Mie Mie

A Woman Torn Apart -- 15 (A)

"shfee wayhech ta3ban?!" asked Saja

"ams kan wayed loya oo 3afsa" i replied

my eyes were redish, darkness around them and my face looked pale! I didn't sleep well and I have no clue how I went to work

"3asa ma shar?!" she was concerned

"el shar ma eyeesh; bs O5oy sawa 7adeth ams 3end bab betna!" i said

"ambeih! shloun?!"

"Wa7ed dash el frej mn jeha thanya, mesre3 oo chena e5tarab breaka; he lost control on his car, oo 6ela3 Ghazy eb wayha... oo da3amaw" I explained

Saja's eyes poped put "Oo 3asa ma9ar fy shay?!"

"la bs ratha bra9a.. El 7amdillah"

"eeh el 7amdillah! ya 3umry 5a6ach el su"

"5a6ach el laash" I said with a smile; how kind is this lady with me?! :) I like how she doesn't ask too many questions about a certain thing... mu malgufa!





What was remaining of the week passed with nothing new; people from everywhere visited our house to console my parents for 3 days! The house was packed with mum's sisters, relatives, sisters in law and her friends. While our Diwaniya was crowded with men who knew dad or my brothers. My sisters visited us more than usual as wll as my BOMA brothers stood by dad.

Of course the weekly gathering was -as usual- packed with nephews, nieces, my brothers' wives as well as my sisters' husbands. Mashallah everyone was there to support mum and dad as well as checking on Ghazy, 7abib el jamee3, who was recovering ;)

Work was calm too! Same routine forced it self for 3 weeks. My boss, '9ary, extended his vacation to 2nd week on January. Marwa was weirdly silent but I didn't care; in fact it felt better to have her mouth shut for a while!

Nahed, on the other hand, would have an occasion or event to attend, EVERY WEEKEND! Mashallah she is a social bee with "less luck in men" as she descripes.

Saja was the same, adorable and sweet! I finally arranged a catch up between Saja and Maryoum, they seemed to like each other and got along well. We would go out every weekend for dinner at T.G.I FRIDAYS, cinema at Sharq and coffee at one of the Starbucks.


A7mad and I... well you can say that things were "fine" nothing new in our relationship and weirdly no fights! He gets frustrated when I hang out in the weekend, but once he hears Saja's name, he calms down saying:

"Dam Saja ma3akoum, ana a6aman!"

Believe me, you don't want to hear the cracky lousy excuses for what ever he says!



Every year, we celebrate New Year Eve ever in Challet or Camping. This Year, Dana -who is pregnant in her 2nd month with a second baby- proposed to throw a party at our basement. At first, mum disagreed and went crazy for the proposal, but when Dana said...


"Om S3ud el Na7s! el 7afla betkoun bs ahalna, ya3nee 5alaty oo Om Maryoum, 5wela Luluwa, 7arem O5wany el melaq oo cham wa7da mn refejatna!"




"LA2 YA3NEE LA2!" Mum affirmed



Dana and 7essa came over to our house with their kids on a Wednesday for dinner, She5a the practical was one her way.


I was sitting next to 7essa, eating nuts and listening their discussion


"t-hagein Omi tertha?!" i asked 7essa

"la2, bs e5tch Dano mu hayna!" she replied

"arahnch ena bensawy el 7afla, oo Omi eb tertha!" daring her!

"5asrana! 3ala cham?!" getting excited!

smilling with confidence "50 dinar!"

Suddenly...

"7essa! ta3alay shufay omch!" Dana yelled!



Both 7essa and I turned toward them and asked "Shfekoum?!"



"Omkm mu rathya tefham leish nsawee el party?!"



"maku ya3ny maku!! wein ga3din?! ana ma a7eb el mas5ara oo el 7achy el fathy!"



"Yuma!! ana ma aby arou7 el mu5ayam! ma agdar w ana 7amel oo darb!!! Ma aby!!!" Dana insisted!



"la tro7un entay oo raylch!" 7essa suddenly interfered



Dana turned into a devil with red eyes, tail and the thorn! She didn't know there was a bet going on and it was 7essa's own benefit if she supported mum! I knew the war started!


"Sheno ya3ny matyee?! Dana E5tna oo rayelha wayed zain ma3ana; oo ohwa thuna2y raylch! Ohma el jaw kela... etha mayoon, yseir malaqa!" I defended Dana


"ya ba3ad ahaly ya 3awashy! Etha ana oo raylee ma yeena, meno ywanskoum?! Lamyoo oo Soho?!" Dana said flaming fire at 7essa! LOL


"latgoulin chthy 3ala 7amawatch! 3eib" Mum demanded!

"materthen 3ala 7amawaty, bs terthen 3alay?!" said Dana with a teary eyes! dmou3 el tamasee7!


"mu gasdy, bs mn meta nsawee 7aflat e7na?! oo shenu ngoul 7ag reyayeelna?!" 7essa said


"ma aby ..." Dana started crying! "entaw mu 5ayfin 3alay, a9lan ana adry bs taboun teftakoun meny oo ma9adagtaw meta atzawaj! Ana maly '3eir raylee! Allah ysame7koum" grabbing her bag and standing up to leave - drama queen! hehe


"Yuma!!! shlun teza3lin Dana!?" i said trying to prevent Dana from leaving "Dana ga3day kel mushkela laha 7al ... Yuma kelaha 7afla oo bas; leish mkabra el salfa?! e3tabreha 3azema mu 7afla!! yam3at 7areem ya3nee!" i continued


"Ohooooo! Omy galat la2 ya3ny la2!" 7essa said trying to win the bet


"Dano! ge3day oo 5alch mn 7arakat el yahal malotch! etha 3azema may5alef, bs 6ag6ega oo a'3any oo rags maku!" mum said

"ya3nee maku ru7at bar?!" Dana said wiping her fake tears


there was a sense of winning / losing a bet ;)


"ee 5alas ana aslan hal sena maly 5elg! Bs 3endy shar6; entaw tsawoun kel shay, oo ana anzel el serdab cheny ma3zouma!" Mum said

Dana came toward mum and hugged her while 7essa screamed "laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa2!" and i laughed!


"haw! 7essa yanetay?!" mum seemed upset!

I laughed sarcastically and explained "HAHAHA! entaw matadroun aku rehan bena! etha Omy rethat, 7esso ta36iny 50 dinar!"


7essa threw a pillow on me while mum said "7amdilla wel shikr!"


That was when She5a came in with a question mark on her face "shefkoum!?"

Dana excitedly replied "bensawee 7afla bras el sena bserdab beitna! Oo 6al3at el bar 7ag el reyayeel bas!"

"nice idea! bs hathela shfehoum ytkaf5oun bel ma5ad?!" pointing at 7essa and me!

"metrahnin 3ala 50 dinar etha bensawee el 7afla aw la2, oo 3awash fazat oo 7essa malzouma tedfa3 el 50" Dana explained with a smile

"i see" She5a sat down and poured some water

"baskoum yal meyanin! 7esso ... 7ESSO! HATHA OO ENTAY EL KBIRA! BAAAS" mum yelled at us!




New Year eve was on Monday that year; we had 5 days to get everything done and prepared! I got my 50 KD from 7essa, who took care of the catering. Dana the social bee took care of the decorations and inviting people. She5a was responsible of inviting Lamya & Souha; also helping mum in convincing Dad to throw the party ! I mean "yam3at 7areem" ;)

I was responsible of the music with the help of Maryoum & Rawan. We also helped Dana in decorating the basement.


My sisters & I invited some of our closest friends; I surly invited Saja who was very excited to meet my mum, sisters & Rawan whom I always talk about them!


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To Be Continued ... A Woman Torn Apart

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Mie Mie

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

A7bich ya Mostaqilla :****




بين الانتظار والاحتساب

وبين الصبر والامتحان



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عدتي تحت راية السواء




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