Dear 2011 ... Exceed my Expectations

Are you ready to be the new year?! how excited are you to enter history when we write you down on our books, notes, letters, events ???

Well, i that's not what I'm writing you this letter!

Dear 2011,,,

Please be ... i don't know what words to begin with! Generious?! Kind?! Gracious?!

2010 was a year of blesses, challenges, and a lot of life determing decisions! It was supportive when I took a "life-changing" decision; no matter how hard that decision is! It proved to me that any decision i took, was the right one!

2010 made me outgoing! brought me back to me "rebillion" roots and help me stand up for my choices; no matter how crazy these choices were!

2010 was also generious in love; i guess Venus liked staying over at my heart maybe for its "great" hospitality! :p Or maybe because i stopped letting a chance of love pass by for "stupid-social" reasons!

2010 tought me that love goes beyond society, traditions, religion & boreders! The more one fight for a "two-sided love" the more one will gain from it! Gosh how 2010 love made me stronger, more mature, optimistic, determined & thankful for every moment I'm living on this planet! in other words, love made me happy ... I love you :)

2010 made me appreciate more the ones who appreciate me, especially at my worse! Its true i lost people in 2010, especially friends. But when someone leaves your life, be sure that they are leaving to give a space for better ones to be in your life :)

Dear 2011,,

Be as gracful as 2010 was... fill my days with joyful moments. But if you want to be mean & make me drop few tears, let it be for something worth it and reward me with something beautiful later!

Dear 2011,,

Be as generious as 2010 was... when it took something or someone, it granted me better ones! When it closed a door, it opened million doors! And when it ended something, it grant me the beginning of something amazing!

Dear 2011,,

I'm not asking you to be better than 2010; just be equal to it! Well, if you want to be better, I wont object! :)

Dear 2010... I love you, will miss you and will always be one of my favorite years!

I WANT!

More love! Let's say I'm a spoiled brat when it comes to love!

Show the world what I got in painting, photographing, travelling, reading and maybe writing!

Finish my studies & gradute!

Health and happiness amoung my family and friends

Perhaps ... a lovely 1 or 2 or 3 or 10 million KD ;p

Happy New Year Everyone ;*

Mie Mie

meet again?!

Are we or are we not?

Will we or will we not?

Hope? Miracle? Faith? Believe?

i don't know

what it will take

for us to be "happily ever after"?!

Is it fair?! I don't know what "fair" even means!

Does "fair" exist? I don't think so!

Who knew we will meet again?

Fall in love even deeper than before!

Who knew that this love

Will turn into my fairy tale,

and you will be my prince charming?

Who knew that your love

will revive my wildest dreams

unleash my craziest wishes

and work so hard on making them real

I don't know when will we meet again

It is one of my wishes

Which I am working so hard on making it happen, and who knows...

Maybe this time will meet, and stay together forever!

i love you

Mie Mie

Away ... But Never Gone!

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

i know i know i've been away for a very long time! Apologize for that :/ but i didnt mean too! -well maybe a little ;p

As a form of an apology i have so many stories to share with everyone, juicy ones! Ready?!

1. The White Dress Dream... No! It isn't like The Dream

Its kind of hard to find a perfect match for marriage nowadays, blame it on stronger social education, women movements, globelazation... anything! Women nowadays are more independent and the older we get, the picker we are interms of choosing Mr. Right.

I'm one of those picky women, i look at every single detail when it comes to choosing Mr. Right, cause he is suppose to be Mr. Right, right?!

Short story: family arrangement, the son of my aunt's friend, freshly graduted from overseas, recently employeed in one of decent government places, highly educated, "broad-mineded", not bad looking, proper age and Taurus... what can I ask more?!

I insisted on an engegment, a long one -that wasn't very welcomed in my family- but i had every right to do so, i don't know the guy.. he doesnt know me as well... This was a condition before any move was to be taken and he was okay with it.

The engagment happened, everyone was happy that the rebellion girl was finally "almost" setteling down. Then things started to change...

"let's get married in two weeks!"

"YOU WERE THE HEAD OF MOSTAQILLA?! AND PROUD?! HUH"

"I maybe studies abroad, but Im very (sharqy) tradition in kuwait, westren abroad"

"Why dont you wear Hijab?! Cause I have the right to ask you too and you must obey me"

"change your job"

We would agree on something, i find out later that he agreed with his "mother" on something else! Claiming that I want it that way!

Things got dirty, ugly and nasty!

He made me feel like a cheap meat, someone who is there only to obey him and satisfy his sexual needs. (PERIOD)

When i was 100% sure that this was his idea and only reason of marriage, i canceled it all! Blow out my family's dream of "settling down" and his dream of being his "slave".

What did i gain?! extreme self-respect! I didnt comply with the society image of a "successful girl" who should be married and has a family. I didnt comply with saying ظل راجل ولا ظل حيطة which means its better to be with a husband than single! I'd rather stay single for the rest of my life than be a slave to a retirded man!

I also learnt to stick to my dreams, no matter how silly or impossible they seem to others! if i believe in them, they will happen.

In my family perspective, i'm still rebellion... never cared, still proud and always will be for who i am!

Marriage?! CLOSED TIL FURTHER NOTICE :)

Then came the getaway to Beirut... A summer to remember! Next Post :)

Mie Mie