A Woman Torn Apart -- 13

He hang up the phone! SERIOUSLY?!?!? A3almk ya a7mad! ya ana ya enta!!!!

I was so mad from his attitude with me; I didn't say anything yet he burst in my face and went crazy for no reason! There must be something he is hiding that made him become so angry.

I parked my car in Sharq Cinema parking, entered from the Big Water Clock entrance and headed to Starbucks to find Saja in a orange short sleeves, oval neck shirt and a jeans sitting in one of the round tables facing the Clock.

I smiled at her and said "Masa2 el kheir"

Saja sttod up "Masa2 el ward" cheek kiss "esh-hal 7eloo?! tshawgin!" she said

"tamam" i replied "tabin neg3ad bara?! el jaw wayed 7eloo!" I suggested; actually I needed fresh air!

she smiled and said "ee sure, bs na6lub awal"

I ordered my Caramel Mochiato, Saja had American Coffee, pick the order and went outdoor.

"6awalt 3alsh?!" I asked her

"la2, ana dashit gablsh beshway" she said

"aha zain ashwa la2eny ma7eb at2a5ar 3an mwa3edy" i know i sound like an old woman. BS WALLAH MALY 5ELG -- OFF mnk ya A7mad! :(

"la mathbu6a" she smiled; killing me with her kindness!

The conversations were weirdly ackward; talking about work and people at work.. more talks about work when Saja said...

"Waaay! Basna sawalf 3an el dawam! sarlena nes sa3a bs dawam oo dawam! Yalla subject change; shloun 7ayatsh el 3a6ifiya?!"

What a great subject to talk about!

"hahaha! ay 3a6ifiya?! maku la 3a6ifiya wla 3a6ify!" in a way it sounded true! there is no romance in my relationship with elly mayetsama!

"leeeeeeish?! kel hal zain oo el 7alat maku 3a6ifiyat?! Ma asadeg!!" She said

"Wallah!" sipping my coffee "aslan ana hal mawal maydesh mukhy! You can say i am a bit complicated"

"I see.. so you never been in a serious relationship?!" Saja asked

"nope! enough about me, what's up with your love life?!" trying to change the subject, somehow!

She took a deep breath and flashed me with a smile "Well... i was engaged to someone before i fly to Egypt; knt a3arfa mn ayam el thanawiya, mn el 3ayla oo kan fy bena mmmm .. tegdrin tsamina 7ub el 6ufola"

"enzain..." That's interesting! I wonder who!!!

"Ohwa kan akbar mny eb sintain, oo yadres fy koliyat el thuba6, 3askary... Bs tekharajt mn el thanawiya, teqadamly... bs 3ugub farkashna" she said

He is not A7mad for sure "leish farkashtaw?!"

"ma retha adres fy Ma9er; yabiny adsh ma3had bu sentain oo ana yayba nesba eda5ilny 6ib! Tekhayilay!!!"

"mn seja!?" I was shocked, how can a man be so selfish?! "ohwa makan yadry ensh tabin tru7in Ma9er aw tabin tkamlin derastsh?!" I asked

"Emballah, oo hathy el mushkila, kan ma5ethny 3ala gad 3agly, telling me that elly tabina basawee! Bs tekhrajt, galy maku jam3a ya ma3had ya matadrisin!" She said

"oo shsawetay?!"

"6ab3an farkashna el mawthoo3 kela, oo 3ama b3eina a5arny course 3an taqdem el jam3a.. I was so depressed, bs Oboy galy ru7ay Ma9er la2en ohwa dares hnak.. Fa gadamt oo derast oo te5arajt!" Smilling with pride

"zain tsaween! Bs ohwa shsar feih?!"

"7athreta mat lama dera eny re7t Ma9er, chan ytzawaj wa7da mn el ahal kanat mayta 3alih! He has 3 kids mnha bs awal maradit mn Ma9er, maat yaby ykalmny oo ana marethet!"

"3eina guweya! shyaby?!"

"mawal: ana a7bsh entay, maby '3ersh... oo 7achy fathy!!" she took a deep breath and contiued "ana wagfta 3end 7ada, mu 3ashan shay.. bsara7a ohwa awal 7ub fy 7yaty oo kebart 3ala eda, fashel tajrubty feih 5alatny an3zel 3a6ifiya 3an el riyayeel. Bs maretheet la2ena ohwa e5tar fa yet7amal natejat e5tiyara".

I was amazed of her emotional idology or let's say (way of thinking)! Four two reasons: 1st it is very mature and independent which shows a woman's cabapilities in love and how she can control her emotions if she wants to. 2nd she is not A7mad's type; so he won't fall for a woman like Saja! Unless ...

"wayed kebartay b3eny ya Saja! Ana a3aref wayed banat dasaw 3ala Karamt-hm 3ashan rayal bs qila ohma elly methlish. Bs ma3qoola wa7da methlsh ma3ashat shay 3a6ify ma3 a7ad 3ugub ... shesma?!"

"hehe Nawaf!"

"ee .. mmm fa ma kan fy shay?!" i coriously asked

"akeed kan fy; bs wayed knt atradad fy bediyat el 3elaqa, bs3din tamshy el 2umor 3ady.. then we reach to a dead end! Bs wala a7ad fehum kan mn el 3ayla, la mn greeb wla b3eed!" she said, shutting up my doubt and thoughts of the idea of (a7mad + Saja = ???)

"a7sanlsh! aslan 3elaqat el ahal dayman fyha meshakel 5asa etha teda5elaw el ahal feha!" I said

"3ala gultsh ... " Saja commented

The rest of the evening was smooth; we talked about studying abroad and how it was my dream, traditions, families...

2 hours passed so quick that we didn't realize, we both enjoyed our time.

"esa3a betseer 8 oo e7na lel7in 3ala cup of coffee!" Saja said laughing

"EE tsadgin! ma7aseit bel wagt! i think it is time to say see you tomorrow" i winked

"hehe ee ba3ad 3ala ma nosal el beit, sarat 8:30 ya doob nla7eg nakel legma oo enam 3ashan dawam bachr" she said

We both stood up, grabbed our bags and went toward indoor

"wein saf6a?!" I asked Saja

"Soob Sultan Centre, i need to get some stuff on the way out" Saja said "oo entay b3eed?!" she asked

"la2 ehny" pointing at the gate behind the water clock

"okay 3ayal.. i had fun wayed ma3ash oo wayed erte7tlsh akthar mn gabl!" She said smiling

"me too wallah; ashufsh bachr enshallah!" we kissed cheeks and each one of us went into her own destined direction

2 hours passed ... were enough to wash away my doubts toward Saja and A7mad

2 hours passed ... i got to know this sweet lady who i met randomly and for the most anonymous reason she cares about me

2 hours passed ... no sound of A7mad

The rest of the evening was smooth! I reached home, chatted with mum, had a salad for dinner then went up for a quick relaxing shower and relaxed on bed.

It was 10:30 pm when I wanted to call Maryoum. But...

7ady ta3bana oo aby anam, bachr bs agulsh sheno 9ar

g.n. xoxo

1 Text Message Recieved

5amdat el 3afya! aslan ana ta3bana oo aby anam

love ;**

Adry wayed dafsha, bs a7ebha ;)

and just when I was about to dip into my dreams .......

6AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKH!!

Bsmellah El Ra7man el Ra7eem!

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To Be Continued ... A Woman Torn Apart

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Mie Mie

A Woman Torn Apart -- 12

I didn't comment, it was almost 5 and i needed to get ready for my coffee with Saja with the excuse of "eeeh .. enzain 3ayal ana lazem agum abadel oo atzahab 7ag el 6al3a; akalmsh lama ard! bye"



"kelamt el 7ag tethayeg bs .. ma3 el salama" said Maryam and we hang up


She knew i was running away from the subject; the marriage subject! As much as I wanted it to happened, as hard it is to think of the reality of our relationship! Every word Maryam said was right, its been 5 years since we've been together, we fought, laughed, stood together... No one understands me like A7mad, and no one can stand being with him but me! I refused many men for his sake, and he stopped in his parents face to marry any girl of their choice!

His mum and sister know there is a girl in A7mad's life; but they don't know who! My mum, Hesa, Maryoum & Rawan know who is the man of my life!

I know what you guys are thinking ... why didn't we got married so far?! This will sound weird but I don't know! He never said I will marry you, directly. But he freaks out when someone propose!

Am I stupid to be with a man who never talked directly about marriage?! If you were in love, or ever fell in it, you will know the answer of this question...



I prayed, dressed up with a baig skirt a rosy shirt and a jeans jacket and my hair was down, greeted my mum and Ghazy who ...

"wein 3ala Allah kel hal kash5a?!" he was sitting next to mum when he asked, while mum was pouring tea for both of them
"baru7 Starbucks sharq ma3 refejty"

"chensh mthagla el mekyaj; yallah ru7ay mes7ay hal alwan! banat a5er zeman!" he waved his finger toward upstairs

Did I mention that my "alwan" were a mascara, blusher & a pink gloss?!

"shaklik fathy oo ma3endk a7ad etnajra! Mama ana ray7a tabin shay?!" I asked mum ignoring Ghazy

"la yuma Allah y7afthsh" Mum replied with a smile

and just when i took few steps away "ta3alaay!!" Ghazy yelled with a hidden smile!

"Uff Ghazy shtaby baru7 t2a5art!"

"aby salamtsh" he winked and finally smiled! HUH i knew he was only trying to tease me!!!




It was 5:30 when I turned the car and drove to Sharq, called Saja who was almost reaching the place


"ana yabely 10 minutes oo akun 3ndsh" I said

"e5thay ra7tsh, ana jarabt mn mustashfa Al Amiry, see you later dear"

"Enshallah, drive safely"

"you too"

We both hang up. I drove through the 2nd Ring Road or Share3 el 7uB toward the Gulf street passing Bnid el Gar, the weather was Fantastic since it was December! Mid chilly winter in Kuwait!

Rwieshd's voice was the best thing to hear at the moment with a classical (Lemny bshoog we7theny) i love this song!


Ambieh... A7mad! I forgot to call him! I dialed his no. But it was busy, weird! I just sent him a msg; I truly want to enjoy the moment, the day, the song and my high mood!













1 Text Message Received


"la7tha, we9alny msg"


Ana Ray7a Starbucks ma3 Saja elly tserlik 3ala gultk! Love you xoxo


"Enshallah teshba3 swalfik!!!" Saja said laughing

"Sajawee chub! hathy mu swalif, hathy el 7ub!" I confidently said

"3eshtaw!! mn emta ya 7athy?!" she asked sarcastically

"mn zemaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan! tsadgin enha el wa7eda elly fahmatny oo met7amlatny"

"la2anha 5abla oo matadry wein Allah ga6ha! Ballah 3alik matguly shlagya feik?! la wathefa, la sana3... oo na9ab oo ra3y banat! aked 3amya" She teased

"3an el '3ala6 yallah 3ad! Hathy 7abibty oo martha 3aliha oo etha a7ad 3amay fa ohwa entay! wein hayta?!"

"ray7a Starbucks Sharq,,, enzain ya Romeo, 9arlkm shkethr?!"

"5 snin b3in el 3ethal!"

"Esmela! Oo 5alty t3arefha?!"

"la2, bs tadry eny a7b wa7da"

"3ayal... meta nfra7 mnkum?!"



"HA?!"

"mn gal HA sema3!"

"laaaa .. lama Allah yaktb nseib; sh-hal legafa?! ba3din wensh hayta!?"

"legafa?! shakelha methel elly gabelha; a7ebha oo madry sheno bs a5er chay mata5eth-ha!"

"shqasdsh?!"

"wath7a nafs el shams! A7mad, bask le3eb fy banat el nas, 3ndk e5t oo 3eib tara kebart 3ala hal swalif!"

"al7in el sharha 3alay ana agulsh, yuba tadrin shlun?! gelbay wayhsh oo thelfay bely may7afthsh!!!"

"hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaay ! 3asabt?! okay kefk ana ...."

TOOOT TOOOT TOOOT


Shtaby hathy?! The best i did was to hang up the phone in her face! Who is she to judge my relationship with 3awashty?!!! It is my fault indeed; i shouldn't share my personal life with Saja, or anyone and give the opportunity to judge it the way they want!

But ... marraige?! Taking a deep breath,,,

The idea of marrying 3awash is some how freaky, strange! I got used to us the way we are, couple of years back I would concider living under one roof. But after my fight with mum for marrying the "one i choose"... I step back and buried the idea of marrying 3awash in my head, and hers



"alo yal en6rab!" The music in her car was loud

"alo, hehe hala2"

"shlounsh?!" I miss her voice

"la7tha awa6y el music... zaina, enta shlounk!?" turning the music down

"tamam dam same3 hal 9out el 7elo; ray7a sharq ha?!"

"ay sharq?!" She wondered

OFF! ana shloun zal lsany oo getlaha sharq! ehya katba Starboucs bs magalat ay wa7ed?! SHIT!!!

"entay mu ray7a Starbouks?!"

"ee bs magelt ay wa7ed!" She knew I was hidding something!

"adry, bs akeed ray7a Sharq, la2en el gaz hnak oo entay lazem e6gin kart fy Sharq!" Trying to turn around the table

"ay shay sa7?! Kha6ik mash'3ul lama dagit 3alik, kent tkalm Saja?!" She asked

That's the problem when you are with a Smart girl! She knows everything!

"La2.. 9a7by" I lied

"9a7bik?!" she sounded mad then continued "kefik ya A7mad! ana el youm mazajy zain oo maby a5arba bsebtk! Ana adry enk knt tkalm Saja oo ehya galatlik ray7en Sharq; madry sh-hal qaraba elly tgulik wein ray7a oo wein rada!"

"OOOOOOOOOOOO ! Ana mu nagsch! Sharq wela Jebla! kefsh!!! lat 6awlin!!!"

"An..."

Wallah I didn't want to lie, or fight! But I don't know why I did that... I just don't know!!!!


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To Be Continued ... A Woman Torn Apart

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Mie Mie

A Woman Torn Apart -- 11

Enshallah the day goes as smooth as a body butter; not in the mood of another cat fight!

Oh! Coffee with Saja today... why am i so ... i don't know how I feel!!

Uff!! speaking about "i don't know how i feel" why do I have this weird feeling about him!



Prayers, thoughts and more thoughts run through my mind as i was driving to work, and without realizing, i reached the (Shenkoo) Department, parked my car and head to the office around 7:20 AM.

Of course it was too early for Nahed or Marwa to come. Turn on the PC, asked for coffee, took a deep breath, here goes a new day of my...

Marwa arrived at 7:35 she didn't greet, and immediatly sat on her desk. She seemed annoyed for seeing me arriving before her. Naive Nahed came at 8 sharp -hehe better than last time!

"Saba7 el 5eir" with her cheerful smile

"sba7 el nour" I replied with a smile

"hala2" Marwa said coldly

Nahed started talking about a wedding she is attending this weekend and doesn't know what to wear since she gain few extra bounds... Marwa didn't participate in the conversation while I gave her ideas on where to shop, makeup and hair.

The morning was weirdly calm; Nahed was between her gossips and documenting, I was working on Nahed's dump reports and Marwa remind quite most of the time... Is there a storm behind this silence?!

Trrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrn ... Trrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrn

"Alo?!"

"weinsh mamareteny el youm?! qahwetsh bredat!" Saja said

i didn't realize it was 11:30 am when she called; time really flow!

"mmm okay kany yaya bs a5ales el taqrer elly 3endy"

"okay.. an6ersh"

10 minutes later I gave Nahed the report, revised it, and excused myself heading to Saja's office.

Adry ena Nahed malha thanb, bs ehya leish tsa3edha oo tsulif ma3aha!! ba6a chabdy... welaht 3aliha bs magdar! Wayed metnarfeza mn ams oo ... ana a3alem hathy 3weesh lama yred '9ary!

:: Saja's Office ::

"3ala maw3edna el youm enshallah?!"

"ee.. tru7in Starboucs Sharq?!"

"mmmm ,, okay! ntelaga hnak 3gub salat el ma'3arb?"

"ee .. bagulsh shay!"

"sheno?! shfesh?!"

"Marwa wayed kanat sakta el youm! '3areba..."

"twaly, shufay el sekouty louty oo hathy mataby traseha 3ala baar, te7atheray mnha! Oo etha kanat nawya tshayesh '9ary 3alish, fa hatha mara7 yser la2any a3aref '9ary wayed 7agany oo mayertha bel thelm.

"lat 7ateen, ana ra7 akun ma3ash"she continued.

i just smiled and said "enshallah kheir".

Time passed so quick that it was 1:30 pm; when i went back to the office, signed out, and went home after a weird calm day!

After a quick normal lunch with mum and dad, I went to my room and turned on the TV. I didn't want to sleep so I thought of wasting some time with the one and only ...


"entay wensh me5tafiya mn zeman 3ansh!"

and before I say any word

"ya3nee etha ana ma2as2al 3ansh entay mates2lin?!?!?!"

"waaaay! Maryoumu al7in meno dag?! Ana daga!! Fa mumkn bedal el hawash nsulif methel el bachar el 6abi3iya?!"

"na3am!"

"gelna 6abi3iya mu nafsiya!!! kefsh mara7 agulsh 7ushty ma3 a7mad oo mno sheft ams! Bye!"

"LA7THA LA7THA! leish t-hawashtay ma3 a7mad?! oo mno shefty al7in aby tefaseel!" she exsitdly said

"mu tawsh mnafsa?!" teasing her



"betgulun aw bayeesh akaf5esh!"



"HAHAHAHA! Enzin M7AMAD! 9abyak qe6a3! el muhm... Allah ysalmsh ams ana mnafsa 3ala A7mad 6oul el youm"



"leish shemsawee?!"


"Madry Maryoum,,, mn galy 3an Saja oo ana nagezny galby! A7es magaly kel shay oo aku sha'3lat 5ash-ha; ohwa 3nda sawabiq bhal swalif"

"ee athker salfat hathy Nejod elly ma3akm bel jam3a, ygulsh tserly oo tserly akher shay 6ela3 el a5 ykalemha!!"

"EE 3AMA B3INA! LA THAKRENY" :@


A7mad has a black record when it comes to the "other" girls. From the day we met back in Universaty, I would meet a girl in a class or in family occasions, she would either be his "ex" or "just friend" or "2nd, 3rd, 10th cousin" ... And this "cousin" always ends up being another girl in his life!


"enzain oo sh9ar 3ugub?!" Maryam asked

"ma9ar .. 6ab3an ana magetla shely mthayegny 3ashan mandsh bchethbat ydida, bs getla eny knt ta3bana oo maly 5elg; oo tsala7na".


"oo tetwaq3in ena Saja laha 3elaqa ma3 a7mad?!" rising the question, and the doubts in me!


"tsadgin ma a7es! ehya sh5siyat-ha '3eir oo akbar mna eb cham sena... Bs el youm ba6la3 ma3aha oo benshuf mayat-ha"


"wein 3ala Allah oo meta?!" annoyingly asked Maryam


"Starboucs Sharq 3ugub el 5"

"eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! 6el3ay ma3 el 3ethal!"


I laughed and said "lel7in madry etha ehya 3ethal aw la2 .. 5alina menhoum, matsadgen mno sheft ams?!"


"meno ba3ad?!"

"El mazyoun mal Sharq" i don't know why i called him mazyoun!!!


"7ELFAY! WEIN?!"


"Johnny Salmiya, oo zafeta!"


"ya bgara leeeeeeeeeeeish?!"


"la2ena kan yaby yrakmny oo mesak el bab oo aflam 3agad! Oo kanat ma3ay Rawan 7ady tewahagt! ma3eraft shloun atsaraf fa zafeta"


"oo tgulin 3any 9abyak! bs zain tsaween feih; kel hal 7alat oo heligy! Sej el 7elu mayakmel!"


"ohwa mu helegy, bs yaby yrakemny" why am i defending him?! MADRY!!


"3awash?!"


"ha?!" with an innocent voice


she shocked my world with "shaklsh mu3jaba feih!"


"laa shaku?!" i yelled


"dafa3tay 3anah oo ohwa mu heligy... shsalftsh?!"

"waaaaaaaaaaaaay maryoom madry shfeeny! Bs shefta 7ashny e7sas 7elo oo estanast, oo bs zafetah thag 5elgy oo ..."

"Oo shenu?!" she interrupted


"OO madry Maryoum! sej madry shfeny!!! Awal mara a7es chethy ma3 a7ad '3eir A7mad, ya3ny entay tadren eshkethr a7eba oo mat5ayal nafsy ma3 wa7ed thany '3era... Bs hal mazyoun madry shemsawy feny!" I let it out... partly!


"ymkn la2enkm tmrun eb fatrat malal 3a6ify!"


"malal 3a6ify sheno ba3ad?!"


"ya3nee entay maletay mn routine 3elaqatkm.. 3awash, entay t3arfin A7mad mn tagreban 5 snin, oo maretaw bwayeed ashya2 ma3 ba3ath... el 3elaqa etha mafeha ta'3eir, el 6arafin ymilon..." she explained


"oo sheno el ta'3yer elly teqtar7ina?!" i sarcastically asked











"el zawaj!"


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To Be Continued ... A Woman Torn Apart

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Mie Mie