I am still wondering,
When is the right time to talk,
The time when we can be us,
When is right time to lay back, relax & be ourselves?!
I am still wondering,
When is the right time to be together?!
If we are both busy in everything & everyone but... us
I am still wondering,
How can we be together, when we see one another rarely & briefly?!
When we barely speak, thinking to ourselves; once a day is enough. And yet briefly
If I didn't find you to tell the boring story of my day...
how it felt searching for my teddy bear while sleeping,
when my younger sis told me about her first day in school,
discussing any stupid issue with dad while eating,
asking mom to hang out with friends,
talking with my friend about life,
driving back home listening to a funny love song - funny! it reminded me of you!
The best part of my boring day: calling you, but you are way way too busy to answer,
Or answer, yet briefly!
Let me go back to the question: if i didn't find you to tell all these details
and share all feeling came along with it,
who will I share it with?!
The problem is: I can share it with the world, but it will never feel good... The way it feels good when I share it with you...
Yes! There is something about you, that got me wondering...
Why did I suddenly feel different toward you?!
How did I fall, when & why...
How could you & only you, make me feel good when ever I talk to you?!
Even when I don't reveal sadness that surrounds me...
Though you don't always say what I need to hear, you always say the right thing?!
I realize later that it is the wise thing...
When you do something wrong, you always know how to get things right, even better than before?!
You always exceed my expectation...
But all of that is done once in a while,
I guess this part makes you human, or real - should I say...
I am fine with "real" ...
But sometimes I want more not less,
I need to live in fantasies sometimes,
It is always nice to runaway from reality, from time to time...
However; I am still wondering,
About you, me & us to be,
Still wondering when will we escape from being real?!
And will always wonder what is life hiding for you, me & our mysterious "WE"
P.S. forgive my rage, I simply want to say "I MISS YOU & MISS BEING WITH YOU" ...
Mie MiE
