My Journey without You

I have been away for a while, somewhere i wanted to go for 3 years, where i have a different life there...

There, I met so many people over the past 11 years going there, some became my friends, some just passed & left nothing but memories, and some became true friends, who I could never let go no matter what!

I never realized that everyone change -not only me- until this year, where some of these friends travelled looking for a better opportunity, & I never heard of them...

Some stayed there and I only saw once...

& someone i miss the most, kept in touch with all along, planned to see this year

it's been 3 years since we saw each other... For my bad luck, he didn't come.. oNly God knows why...

The reason doesn't matter, what matter is I miss this person more! I found out that he made my summer journey worth a million word...

Please don't get me wrong; he is my very best friend for over 6 years now,,

What's so special about him?!

We would talk for hours about everything & everyone :)

We would tell each other what to do in different situations & how we feel about others

He would never let anyone hurt me & he would never let me need anything
He's always, ALWAYS there for me, even when we are not in the same place

He is the sparkle in my summer journey, and the joy of my life

I feel MIE when I am around him

This year, I went to my summer runaway, everything was the same

Same roads

Same buildings
Same people

Everything was the same, but it never felt like one day when he's around

It felt like I am in an ordinary place,

Nothing special about it, or people, or even me!

I felt something was wrong, but I never knew what it was

I felt empty even when I am doing so many things

I felt lonely even when I am with others

Again, nothing special, especially me!

He called once, and that's when I knew he was the missing link that lighten my journey...

When he did, I wanted to say so many things, i guess I wanted to cry too

But I remained calm...

Surprisingly he felt my need for a shoulder; and he was... After talking to him, I figured out why I felt empty & lonely there. I recalled our moments together, our chats, smiles, laughs, fights, argument's, discussion...

I recalled once, I was very pissed & angry, just wanted to scream! I was in my cousins place, when I left suddenly, walking to my grandfather's place - which is located on top of hill! He followed me, called me & I ignored him - so like me when I'm mad ;p - When he finally reached me, I asked him to go, but he didn't. He walked with me until we reached the house, we stayed outside actually we sat on a rock & kept talking...

I felt I grabbed the world in my hands, I can't remember why I got mad that night... When I recalled this night, I felt lonelier

Only then, I wished I never went there this year at this time...

To a very special person

To my very best friend

Let me take this quote from you:

"It's the Journey that brings happiness NOt the destination" yOu aRe right :)

Miss you & miss our special moments

Hope to see you soon :)

Mie miE

SomeoneS - Love?! - Salute to...

Someone will hold your hand
Someone will grab you into his heart
Someone will pass by & will not bother

Someone will say "it's okay, but you could have done this & that"
Someone will say "let go! nothing is worth a tear from you"
Someone will remain quite & will say nothing

Someone will love you
Someone will adore you
Someone will live without you

Someone will look into your eyes
Someone will look beyond yours eyes
Someone will look at anything but you

Someone will smile with you
Someone will make you smile when you need to
Someone will make you cry & will not apologize

Someone will dance with you
Someone will dance for you -even if they don't know how
Someone will dance on your wounds

If you are with the FIRST SOMEONE; simply say "Thanx but I need more" it is not wrong to ask, it is wrong not to ask for what you deserve...

If you are with the SECOND SOMEONE; you are blessed... one out of billion are lucky like you, just take care of your SPECIAL SOMEONE...

If you are with the THIRD SOMEONE; you need to ask your self "why am I wasting my time?!"

And remember...
Love doesn't take your dignity away; it grants it to you!
Love is not saying "I love you" all day, yet disappear all year!
Love does not stop at one point, only those who care can make it last long!
Love is cheering you up, never puts you down!
Love is freedom, never locking you up!
Love is changing your life to something better; & bringing the best of you!

One last thought...
yOu aRe iN lOve whEn: you smile for just thinking of someone, even when they are not around...

Salute to my lOve

Mie miE

Closed Doors

i thought of this while studying for exams...

There was a big chaos in my life
Lost between what's wrong & right
Lost in believes, is there anything to believe in anymore?!

Why do i get attached to false?!
I don't realize how stupid I am until I fall...

Deep down, there is sorrow
no one saw, no one felt
Maybe few did, yet didn't bother
Maybe they tried, yet didn't insist

I didn't know what to do...
Where to go...
Who to cry for... all doors were closed
There was, however, only one door to knock... In fact, this door was always there, just waiting for my "knock"

When i finally did, other closed doors opened, with someone holding my hand and saying "everything you want will happen, just wait; patience is the cure"
"will it be easy?!" i asked
"No! Don't you know that (EASY) destroys values of things?! Don't you want your wishes to come true?!" it asked
I replied "Of course I do!"
"Fulfill your self with patience; it is the only truth in life and will lead to satisfaction for sure."

It held my hand, and guide me through...
When a door is closed, it draws a smile on my face
When Saree finds it way through, it tells me "Patience is the cure"

It is certainly true...

Somewhere in that time, I took a decision that changed my life...
I won't lie, sometimes i ask my self "why did I scarify?!"
Then i hear a voice whispering "Patience is the only cure, the only truth..."

That's when I recall all the opened doors just after my scarify,
That's when I truly smile,
Realizing there are more doors to open in life,
All it needs patience & a little believe...


Mie miE