Nothing special about this week, or any other weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds of my life... they are the same... aimless
It was 4:3o in a boring afternon when the door bell rang. I knew it was ....
"7amdillah 3al salamah" i said forcing a smile
"Allah ysalmch" he said kissing my cheeks
he dragged his trolli inside as I called the servant to take it to our room.
"shlun safrtk?"
"zaina, '3ayarna jaw .. "
i smell a hint on me , but i didnt comment.
"wein el yahal?!" he said while we sat on the sofas , on away from the other!
"Rana marat Jood khathat-ha tla3ebha ma3 3yalha, oo Khalood nayem" Jood is Walid's sister. Walid is my husband ;p
"zain tsawee Jood, wayed met3alga eb Rana oo mateb5al 3aliha bshay, ely tyeeba 7ag 3yalha tyeeba 7ag Rana" he said
i dont know why he always LOVES to remind me that he has a great loving family, and he has a great relationship with his younger sister; when he knows that I don't talk to the most beloved brother to me, Ghazi!
"Ee ya7lilha! Allah y5alilaha 3yalha w 3yalna" i said "taby terta7 aw asweelk shay?" trying to change the subject
"la badsh aqayel shway ... " he said standing up from the sofa and heading to our room "tabin shay!?"
"la salamtk... "
this is our life, or at least mine.
This is the man i married and will stay with for the rest of my life!
It is a life that has no color
Nothing special, not even me!
I know it is his punishment to me, for choosing A7mad on him.
He forced himself into my life, my family and now he is the life I get!
boring , unemotional , uncolorful life!
** May 2001 **
Few days after my mum told me some "catch" proposed, my mobile was ringing while i was driving back from work.
It was a strange no. 907####
I didn't answer the first time, but I did the FIFTH time!
"Na3am!?" i said in a sharp voice
" .... "
"alooooooooooooooooooooo?!?"
when a deep voice said " 3aysha?! "
who is he and how did he know my name! stalker?!
"mno ma3ay!?" i tried to keep myself calm and not show him how frighten i was!
"shlunch?!" he was calm and cool to freak me out more!
"etha magetly mno enta ra7 arga3 el kha6 bwayhk w a36y raqmk 7ag el maghfar!"
He exploded of laughing! really loud!
"Yuba 3a6ih raqmy 7ag oboch ba3ad, oo golila hatha Walid theba7ny w yabee yetzawajny!"
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I hang up immediatly! Some psycho calls and says his name with confidence and courage! MAYNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!
He only sent an SMS saying " ya 7elwch lein tetwahgain! 3muman sogay brekada w ana aklmch gabel latgayleen "
And he knew when I took my nap! I was freaked out! When I reached home I switched off my mobile, had lunch and went to my room to sleep, called A7mad from my landline
"7abiby, ana banam w msakra jehazy, deg 3alay 3ala raqam dary etha taby shay"
"leish sakartay jehazch, 9ayer shay?!" he asked with a caring tone
"la, bs maly 5elg a7ad mn el dawam aw refjaty ydgun 3alay, ta3bana w aby anam" i said
"eeeeeh " he sounded suspecious! He felt something wrong, it was obvious from my disturbed voice
"enta shbetsawy?!" changing the subject
"el youm el arbi3a, raye7 el challet, msawyiin BBQ weya el shabab. Bs entay fech shay w mara7 tgulin ela lama t5alis el salfa aw tseer museba w ba3din tfaj2iny! nafs 7jabch!"
"uff wely y3afeek aby anam w maly 5elg nejra! enta bru7k 6angart w 5tefeet shahrain! shda3wa ana mate'3ayart 3ugub el 7jab!"
" bensba lech mate'3ayartay w entay mat7seen 3ala 3umrch! 3muman, el yum weekend w maby a5arb mazajy, w 6ab3an mazaj 7athrtch! ana ban6r w bashuf el balwa el yaya shenu! tabin shay?!" He said
"LA2!"
He said "bye!" in a very concerned voice! A7mad had this 6th sence, he knows when something is going to happen, and he was right about one thing, it was a "BALWA"!
10 minutes later, as i was slowly and calmly trying to sleep, the landline phone rang, i thought it was A7mad but ...
"alo?!" with a sleepy voice
"ana mu gaylch bakalmch gabel latnamiin?! shakly te2a5art 10 degayeg!" Walid said
"NA3AAAM???? ENTA SHLUN T3AREF HAL RAQAM?! W MEN WENLIK?! W .. W ..!" I stuttered! No one knows this number except My mom, Ghazi, 7essa, Rana, Maryoom and A7mad!
"ana bafahmch kel shay, bs entay haday... " he said with his calm deep voice
"SHLON AHDA W ENTA MADRY MNO BS T3AREF KEL SHAY 3ANY! KEL SHAY!!" my voice was shaking
"mu kel shay, bs ashya2 asasiya, ana aby a3aref kel shay 3anch .. w akthar ba3ad. bs mara7 atkalam lein ta5theen nesm w tehdain!"
something told me to go along with him, because anger and rage wont get me anywhere!
i sigh and said " tefathal ... "
" Dam fathlch yal '3alya, esmy Walid Al **** , 3umry 28 ashte'3l fy el Qwat el 5asa , 3askiry ya3ny oo ana adry ench mat7biin el 3asaker ... Entay esmch 3aysha Al **** , 3umrch 9ar 25 shahar February ely 6af , teshta'3lin fy Hay2at el Zera3a , merta7a hnak la2ena muderch raye7ch min el boma Marwa! 6al3atch bedat t5uf, rfejatch el grab ma3dudiin 3al asabi3 ... Shenu ba3ad t7biin t3arfiin?!"
I was STUNNED! How did he know and why?! Only close people knew these details, my birthday and work! How did he know?!
I gathered my strength and said "mashallah , msawy researches 3adel 3alay, mumkn a3aref shtaby?! "
"Salamtch yal '3alya, ee nseit agulch, entay be7jaab wayhch mnawer akthr mn gabel! 3einy 3alich barda, mazyuna! Ana aby atqadmlch , w abech bel 7alal , shgeltay?! "
" shlun awafeq w ana ma3arfk! "
" tabin tkalminy gabel?!"
"laa2 mu hathy qasdy! qasdy shlun awafeq atzawaj 3ala 6ul 3ala wa7ed ma3arfa?! ana mu bayra 3end ahaly! Oo etha taby leish ma5aleet omk edg 3ala omy!? akid t3aref raqam beitna!? Aslan ana metqademly wa7ed! "
" ana magelt zawaj , ana gelt aby atqadam , twafqiin 3ala hathy el 5e6wa?! 3ashan el walda matenrad , la2enha dagat bel fe3el oo omch maradat 3aliha 9arlkm youmin! " He shocked me!
" ana ... ana madry shagol! "
" 3aysha , entay bent ayaweed w ana min zman 5a6ry feech , wayed te3abt 3ashan a6ale3 kel hal ma3lumat 3anch , 3erft ench mu mal le3b ... Ana abeech bel 7alal , shary mu baye3! Aslan ana lu a3arfch min zman, chan al7in 3endna 5 yahal ! kel sena wa7ed ! Bs awal sena bedun yahel"
he released a sarcastic laugh, a laugh that made me realise he was hinting on my 6 years relationship with A7mad!
" ana bakhlich al7in , w bs atmana ma6awloun 3al walda... shufeny entay mu 5asrana shay" he said and i was quite!
"tamrin 3ala shay yal '3alya?!" I could feel his smiling face, as if he won a medal!
"la2, bye!" and i hanged the phone.
I couldn't sleep that afternoon, tose and turn in bed, flipping all the thoughts in my head and i didn't know who to call!
2 hours later, i found my legs drifting me down to the hall, i sat next to mum who was watching TV and said
"ana mwafqa, degay 3al mara 5alyon!"
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To Be Continued ... A Woman Torn Apart
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Mie Mie
