Why I'm Not Blogging?! Or Living?!!

I am not living the life i want! This Master studies is taking all my time, and maybe life! and it is just Masters... 3ayal PHD shloon?!

Maybe my supervisor is giving me a hard time; or maybe it's me! I even thought of quiting, changing, blowing it ... COMMIT SUICIDE! hehe bs Akhaf Allah :(

It all started in October 2009; when I went to register the Subject of my study and took the initiative to submit the proposal of the subject.

My supervisor was impressed because I gave him the proposal, and "hinted" a GO AHEAD. I started digging and digging for sources and a case study ... bla bla bla

In November, I traveled to Bahrain to update him on what I reached in my "digging" But I was shocked from his "generous" side that I have to change the proposal, and wait for a Committe to approve it! I was stunned, shocked and sad! I litrally wasted 1 and a half month of my life digging for something that my supervisor didn't bother to inform me "it is canceled!"

Wayed zain!

Because I am a flexible person, I changed the proposal 3 times to a subject that I deeply think it is "stupid" but I didn't share this thought with him cz:

1. he is the head of the department

2. i had enough changing and urguing for something when he keeps refusing it!

After submitting the 3rd "5re6y" part in December, i waited for a Committe of Professors to discuss it with me then approve it. For my surprise, the Committe didn't need my attendence, and -again- my supervisor didnt bother informing me! I had to find out when I traveled to Bahrain!

Add to that my personal day to day drama -im sure we all have it!- I decided not to write it until January 2010 ... ejaza bkefy!

Jan = Submit Chapter One

Mar = Submit Chapter two

May or maybe April = Submit Chapter three -the final chapter

It's end of Jan, I honestly finished 70% of Chapter One! Why?! HMMMM:

1. i feel frustrated from the study

2. a friend of mine asked me a question about my study and I couldnt answer!

3. Today, i sat with another professor who pointed out the "stupid" parts in my study which made me realise that I am not convinced enough to defend it!

4. I had something more importent life changing decision to take that took over my mind for 5 months, and I had to come with an end to it! hehe and I did ;p

El muhem!

I don't know what to do, i really believe that it is a good subject to study, and I want to change the stupid parts of it. But I am really concerned with my "na7ees" supervisor -well he isn't na7ees, he is Stubborn! Which is giving me a hard time :(

I want to write him an email and explain why I changed the stupid parts, because i honestly think they are stupid! I also want to tell him to stop arguing in useless topics which makes me feel more lost!

Wallah it is driving me crazy :( Shasawee?!

P.S. Some people at work ... sa5efiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin! Oo el mafrooth, el mafrooth, they are "men"! 6al !

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